Alia Shawkat photographed by Ashley Batz
i was toxic to some and a blessing to others. im willing to admit i wasn’t always in the right.
If it’s something real, then you gotta fight.
Clean car and a good workout today 😋
In a relationship there is always the arguement of who loves each other more. And if you happen to lose that person, you really see what they are made of. And you see what you’re made of too.
I felt regret, guilt, disappointment and I melted it down and turned it into armor. Not the armor you use to keep people away. But the armor you use to protect yourself and the people you love. The armor you would gladly share with someone to make them stronger or atleast feel stronger too.
I’ve turned my past experiences into medals. Things that I have lived through and triumphed over. Things I can look at and say, “I was hurt, torn down,beaten. But I fucking walked through the flames and made it out of the other side.”
I’ve lived my life with countless people telling me what a good person I am or, how I have so much potential. They see something in me I don’t see in myself. I want to unlock that within myself and bring it to life. I want to see what all the hype is bout.
I’m on the path to becoming a better me. A real path this time. Not trying to reset myself with everything saved still. I’m letting go of the pain, of the suffering. Of the regret. I want to live my life fully and be happy. I want to be loved and I want to love.
I’m feeling a little hopeful for what’s in store for me. I’m going to make this life my bitch. I’m going to be the best person I can be to as many people as possible. And for the one I love, I will be her everything.
And I promise you that, Will. Let’s get to work.
